assalamualaikum

Monday, February 27, 2012

klu la fakta itu betul...

td on fb jap then komen la kt status kwn aku ni darlin..erm tertarik aku dgn status dia tu..status dia tu mention klu seseorg hadir dlm mimpi kita means dat org tu tgh rindukn dia n itu fakta..i hope btl la cmtu tp Allah lbh tau kn..yee..mmg aku ada mimpikn dia 2 3 ari lps x slp dlm 2x jgk la..mybe aku trlalu pkir psl dia smpi terbawa2 dlm mmpi kn tp klu btl dia pn sedang rindukn aku mcm apa yg aku rs ni itu dh cukup memadai utk aku..cukup utk aku klu dia belum lupakn aku..aku tahu mmg agk ssh utk aku terima hakikakt kitrg dh x bersama skg ni tp lmbt laun still aku kena terima jgk once  one day nnt dia mybe akn bersama org lain or mybe skg ni pn dia mungkin dh dpt pngganti ex gf dia kn..i akn slalu doakn u bhgia syg..ikhlas dari hati i..i lepaskn u pn sbb i syg u n i syg diri i jga..i xnk habiskn ms i dgn sia2..i ada fmly..n i akn bhgiakn fmly i..i x ksh lg psl diri i..klu tuhan dh tetapkn ada bhgia utk i kt dunia ni i terima tp klu sebaliknya yg terjadi pn i tawakal je..but so far after kita dh x bersama ni n mmg dri dlu lg kot i dh prnh jnji dlm diri i if bkn dgn u i sklipn i xkn mungkin brsama dgn org lain.i've my own reason n i guess u pn mst dpt agk kn kenapa..i xkn serahkn sesuatu yg brhrga utk org yg i x syg i x cinta..im really sorry but i cant hurt others anymore..i lbh rela klu i yg terluka di lukakn hati org2 yg ikhlas terima i unless dia boleh terima diri i seadanya..segala baik buruk i..segala kenangan2 i dgn u tp i rs mybe xkn wujud lg org cmtu kn skg ni...dats i lbh rela sendiri..

Thursday, February 23, 2012

rindu masih ada....

betapa seksanya terpaksa menahan rindu ini tp ini mungkin dugaan utk aku bila terlalu menyayangi seseorang lbh2 lagi seseorang yg x mampu aku miliki sampi bila2 pn;(..if u boleh rasa apa yg i rasa mybe beban perasaan i xkn jadi seteruk ni syg;(i miss u..miss u a lot..everyday i tahan diri i dari menangis...tahan diri i dari contact u..tahan diri i dari seksa diri i sndri..sakit betul tiap kali i try utk lakukan semua itu..tp i tahu i kena kuat lebih kuat lagi utk melawan semua perasaan tuhan bagi pd i ni..;(

Monday, February 20, 2012

berakhirnya kisah kita HA;(

A daily thought, A silent tear, A Constant wish that you are near, Words are few but thoughts are deep, Memories of our frndship i will always keep...
take care dear..i will always miss u but i know u'll never need me anymore am i rite;(
but it is the truth i have to accept..
whatever it is i have no reason to still keep on hoping dat one day u'll be mine...but i will still keep on waiting until my last breath..no one can replace u cz u r so special..just go n looking for sumone u love sumone who can make u smiles all the time dear..n forget me..sory for everything..i happy sgt2 i dpt penuhi semua permintaan2 u dlm tempoh 4 bln kita bersama n now i hope u can let me go even i know it will hurt me so much then;(

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

all about him..

Out of all the souls in this world
he's the one
and my heart he has controlled
he doesn't even know
how much of this I hold
deep within my heart of gold
he's reckless
and cold
that's the way he has been shown.

My nights are filled with dreams of him
my days as well
he even makes me sing
how I know that this is true
there's no one in this world I want but you
silly
foolish
perhaps that's me
but true love waits conquers and knows no boundary's
patience is the key
and when you come to me
I'll hold you
love you
support you
never set you free

a love like this is only ours
I've loved before
that lasted only hours
its been years in
I still feel like your my king
my heart is open for you
when your ready
to be more than my friend
you'll see how deep it runs like the ocean
never ends.




demam rindu u..;(

hari ni bgn pagi2 terus rasa dahi..erm demam lg makin panas plak tu then x psl2 menangis tibe2..i miss u dear;(..cmne nk balik kg klu still badan panas lagi cmni..kt luar tu mst lg panas kn..nk balik malam tkt nk gerak kuar sorg2..dat time terus teringtkn mama..i promise her nk balik arini..sory mama i cant make it by today..but i really miss u so much lbh2 lg bla dlm keadaan cmni..i miss u too dear..u senyap je lagi la i rindu u..mybe i demam ni pn sbb rindukn u..i never stop thinking bout u syg..everyday..every minutes n every seconds..klu la i boleh transfer sumer rindu i pd u mybe i xkn jd seteruk ni..;(i miss u my bucuk;(

Sunday, February 12, 2012

brokenhearted girl..;(

dear u...
klu la u boleh rasa rindu i skg..;(
klu la u boleh faham segalanya..
tp i xmampu nk contact u..nk text u..nk call u lagi..
but everyday u always in my mind..
u'll always in my heart...
tiada yg lain selain dari u..
cz i do love u so much..
these three words yg i x boleh nk ucapkan lagi pada u selagi i belum btl2 yakin..
..;(;(;( rindu sgt2 pd u saat2 mcm ni..i teringtkn segalanya ttg kita yg dulu..
;(tuhan saja yg tahu perasaan i tika ni..airmata shja teman baik i..
i promise u watever happen to me after this u'll always in my heart..forever...;(
hugs for u..H.A...

Thursday, February 9, 2012

deeply from my heart...

everyday 
i'll always love u
hoping that one day u'll feel the same
how u r really mean to me
how do i live without u
n how hard im trying to forget everything
about us before
butt stil i keep on waiting for u 
until now..my love

just for u syg..azril;(

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

bila rapuhnya hati seorang perempuan

everytime ble u x rply msj i lngsung irs mcm dilupakn je..yup i really hate diz feeling when im feel dat i've been forgotten;(in single time i love to be alone everytime i feel dis...tipu klu i x rs sedih lngsung ble tgk fon pagi td there is no any more reply...alwways mcm tu kn..lps je jmpa i msti u akn senyap terus..ble nk jmpa je u rajin contact2 i..nape ye syg..i tkt nk tnya sbb tkut u terasa hati tp apa yg ada dlm minda i tiap kli jdi mcm tu lbh pd negatif..i xleh elak dari pkir mcm2 syg sbb i hanya manusia biasa yg dikurniakn tuhan dgn mcm2 perasaan..jujur i ckp kt cni i btl2 sedih tiap kli u buat mcm ni..tp i x trdaya nk luahkn pada u but still i berhpr one day nnt u akn sedar betapa bnda2 remeh mcm ni sgt2 melukakn hati i syg..just once cubalah utk mngerti perasaan i sbg seorg perempuan..i xmintk lebih n selama ini pn i prnah minta pape pn kn..cubalah utk mngerti diri i mcm mna i cuba utk penuhi setiap permintaan u selama kita kenal ni;(;(

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

7th of february:)

rs happy sgt2 ble dia ckp nk jmpa..mati2 aku igt x dpt jmpa dia lg sblm aku blik kg..tq syg..tq sgt2 u dtg jgk jmpa i..spend masa dgn i..so sweet syg..n tq for everything;)cian u kn x dpt mkn nasi mentah plak nsi tu kn...sory dear..bla u ckp u rindu i tu i rs bhgia sgt2..i igt i sorg je yg rindu u ye la u always bz kn ngn kje u,kwn2 u,aktiviti u semua smpaikn i pikir u x pnh nk pkir pn psl i..tp i silap menilai u..even u bkn jenis yg tnjuk semua tu tp i tau u bkn cmtu..tq dear u dh buktikn yg u bkn jenis mcm tu..tq jgk layan kerenah2 i ye dgn sbr.apa2 yg i ckp yg i text u u wt mcm xde pape je..i tahu some text i tu msti buat u terasa hati in tp syg jjr i ckp ble i berperang dgn emosi sndri mcm2 yg i pkir then terluah la mcm2 kt msj2 i tu klu i xluahkn kt blog i ni..watever it is dear i'll always love u..forever..masa i bersama dgn u mmg i rs bhgia sgt2..;)tq for everything given;)

Saturday, February 4, 2012

im frustrated;(

x dpt aku describe perasaan aku time bca msj dia tu ble dia ckp xtau lg la yunk..ble dia ckp xtau lg tu mmg aku dh dpt agk jwpnnya mmg negatif kn..n till today aku rs diri aku sorg2 jgk tnpa kehadiran dia temankn aku..xde guna jgk cuti yg lama ni.mmg aku kecewa sgt2 smpi dh x terkeluar lagi air mata ni..n diz was not the first times..dh byk kli jdi cmni..msti ada je halangan smpaikn aku sndri dh mula give up utk plan pape lg sb semua bnda2 ni akn bwt aku sedih ble aku trlalu berharap;(;(;(
TAPi aku try buat pape je kt umh ni yg boleh hlgkn rs kecewa n sedih aku ni lbh2 lgi housemate aku pn xde..klu aku tau nk jdi cmni dh lama aku ikut dia blik kg..nk blik kg aku pn tiket of coz dh sold out..cuti lama kn msti rmai yg blik..erm...aku rindu sgt2 nk bersama org y aku syg..rs kecewa kali ni buat aku jdi mls nk pk lg psl relationship ni..ble smpai satu tahap aku pernah pk mmg dia x pernah letakkn aku utk jdi seseorg yg penting dlm hidup dia..mybe never spnjg dia kenal aku kn;(tp aku x mampu nk luahkn semuanya pd dia..ckup smpai kt cni je kt blog kesayangan aku ni...xkn ada sape2 pn akn au aku kecewa kau menangis teruk cmne skalipn kt sini..

muaaaahhhh:)

muaaaahhhh:)
adanya sy harini coz of them

lovely sibling;)

lovely sibling;)
part of my life