i will miss u sis;(

~ME WITH K.ZU..~~

 

AKU SYG DIE SGT...

arini aku abiskn ms ngn k.zu je..klu bkn sbb die mmg aku x  blik kl pg td.sumernye sbb die..arini last aku dpt jmp die..sunday die dh nk blik kg dh..sdih2 sgt2 rs hati ni ble kwn yg dh aku anggp cm kakak aku sndri dh prgi tgglkn aku..even bru knl die 5 bln je tp aku dh ckup knl hati budi die..byk bnde aku share ngn die cmtu jgk ngn die..nnt xtau lg ble dpt jmp die..enjoy kuar ngn die td 4 the last time..ktorg jln kaki je smbil borak2 dri ampng smpai la tesco ampang..jauh kn..tp ble dh borak2 cmtu x  ase pnt kn..then die blanje aku mkn..sdihnye..dh lme aku x  rs sdih n sayu cmni kot ble kne brpsah ngn kwn aku..dh agk lme aku x rs cmni..time clash ngn ex aku dlu pn feeling tu x  sesedih ni..mybe aku btl2 apreciate kehadiran die sbg kwn dlm hdup aku..pasni aku mst sorg2 je..dh xde org nk belikn aku nsi borak2 ngn kau..citer sal fashion2 sumer..mst aku rndu sgt2 time ngn k.zu..akk,npe cpt sgt akk tggalkn lnda..lnda still perlukn akk..akk pn tau kn kt kl ni lnda sorg2 je..nme je kwn rmai tp x pnh ade org take care sal lnda cmne akk bwt pd lnda..npe la kte bru knl..tp lnda syukur sgt2 Tuhan bg lnda knl ngn akk..akk byk bg nsht pd lnda..bg smgt pd lnda saat2 lnda perlukn seseorg yg boleh dianggp kwn..mybe sbb akk lg tua dri lnda so lnda boleh brmnje ngn akk..lnda syg akk taw..syg sgt2..hope 1 hari nda dpt smpai kedah tu jmp ngn akk..nk je lnda ikut akk blik sne..akk jge dri leklok tau..tnggu lnda..smp ble2 pn lnda xkn lupekn prsbbtn kte ni..btl kte akk lnda jns yg lemah perlu brgntung ngn org lain tp kak lnda jnj nnt lnda xkn nangis2 lg..lnda akn try lwn blik ble org wt pape pn kt lnda..lnda hrp lnda mampu..akk pn tau kn lnda jns cmne..akk dh xde nnt life lnda mst snyi kn..dh xde org nk ajr lnda naik bas..ajk lnda jln2 kt psr mlm..n yg plg pntg jln2 kt tesco..lnda  xpnh buat bnde ni sumer sblm knl akk..akk jgn lupekn lnda tau..miss u 4ever sis...x thn nk tulis byk2 lg..nnt lnda mkin sdih..;(

back to normal life..

arini cm bese la aku off so just stay umh je..pg2 aku dh bgun xleh r nk tito lme2 sgt x bese mst akn bgun pg gk..then bru leh tito blik..arini kje aku kemas blik je..ubah ckt2 dh agak  lme gk x wt id kt blik aku ni..one of kje yg plg aku ske bwt..hehe..how i love interior design..sbb tu la aku brcita2 nk beli umh sndri..dh ade umh sndri nnt bru best ckt aku decorate umh aku tu..insyaAllah if ade rezeki thn dpn aku nk beli umh..hope impian aku trmkbul..hehe..dh pnat kemas2 blik aku rest smbil lyn lgu kt enset..penat tp puas ati buat bnde yg aku suke..dh xtau nk wtpe lg ni..nk bsuh bju pn nmpk cm nk ujan je..mendung je..pg2 bapak segala sjuk..klu dpt tito mmg best la..tp aku ble kt umh ssh plak nk tito tu yg pelik tu..xpela..klu aku tito skg mlm kang ssh plak nk tito..aku ni dh la ade insomnia..haha..tgk2 blog jew la..edit2 ape2 yg boleh diedit..jnj x  tito siang..aku rs la kn dh agak lme aku x tito siang ni tp tu la mlm pn agk ssh gk nk tito..huhu.k la xtau nk tulis pe agi ni..nt aku ade mud memblogging aku coret2 lg k..tata..

kesunyian itu muncul kembali...

npe kesunyian ni mst muncul kembali???aku dh selesa dgn life aku skg tnpa kehadiran seorg lelaki past few years ni..tp npe lately dat feeling tu slalu sgt gnggu life aku..aku mohon sgt2 jauhkn prasaan2 tu sumer dri aku wt ms skg ni..aku x nk rs terluka lg rs skit lg..semua yg pnh jd dlu ckup buat aku berhati2 ble kwn ngn laki bkn sbb aku x cye or dndam ngn dorg or watsover tp aku tkut aku xleh cntrol dri aku sndri..ble aku sygkn seseorg aku akn syg die sgt2 tp at last prasaan syg tu mkn dri aku sndri..syg jgk la yg wt life aku hmpir2 musnah..tp tuhan tu maha penyayang..die bg aku smgt yg kuat even kdg2 aku terase jgk mcm nk jtuh blik..ya Allah..tlg jauhkn prasaan itu dri aku wt mse skg ni..skg ni pn aku dh mula rse perasaan ni x sptutnye ade lbh2 lg ble aku da mula rs syg pd org yg x sptutnye..mmg aku mngaku selesa sgt ble ngn die tp die milik org...ckupla aku syg die dri jauh..n ckup la die xtau pe yg aku rs skg ni..even kteorg oke tp aku akn pstikn die x kn tau pape pn psl pe yg aku rs ni..n mybe aritu jgk akn jd ari last aku jmpe die..aku dh decide lps ni aku akn tggalkn tmpt ni tnggalkn org2 yg pnh bg memori pd aku..sape2 je mmber2 or org2 yg pnh rpt ngn aku..mybe dgn care cmni je aku leh elakkn dri dari sumer org..pgi ke satu tmpt yg bru n mulakn hdup bru..yew..hdup bru utk aku n fmly aku...u,i mntk maaf if pasni i akn snyap terus..bkn mksd nk lupekn u tp i trpkse wt cmni..utk i n utk dri u jgk..even i x berterus terang ngn u tp i hope sgt u boleh fhm sndri npe i wt cmni..i senang sgt kwn ngn u..really apreciate wat u have done to me b4..being by my side whenever i need u..temankn i ble i sunyi wt i gelak n mcm2 lg..knlkn i ngn mmber2 u..g mkn2 tgk wayang sumer...ajr i swimming..;) miss dat time so much...jge dri u..study tu pntg jgn pk nk enjoy sgt k..takc care dear..i will always remember u..remember our friendship..mybe one day klu tuhan izinkn kte akn jmp lg..tkecre..

do i??

cantik la beyonce ni..i like..;)

=)

You're everything I thought you never were

And nothing like I thought you could've been

But still you live inside of me

So tell me how is that

You're the only one I wish I could forget

The only one I love to not forgive

And though you break my heart

You're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you 'cause I can't erase

The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face

And even now while I hate you it pains me to say

I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe

I don't wanna a broken heart

Don't wanna to take breath without you babe

I don't wanna to play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kinda way

No, no, I don't wanna a broken heart

And I don't wanna to play the broken-hearted girl

No, no, no broken-hearted girl

I'm no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say

But up 'til now I've always been afraid

That you would never come around

And still I wanna put this out

You say you got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me

And still you're in my heart

But you're the only one

And yes there are times when I hate you but I don't complain

'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away

Oh, but now I don't hate you, I'm happy to say

That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe

I don't wanna a broken heart

Don't wanna to take breath without you baby

I don't wanna to play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kinda way

No, no, I don't wanna a broken heart

And I don't wanna to play the broken-hearted girl

No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh

I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah

Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free

To spread my wings and fly away, away with you

Yeah, yeah, yeah, oh, oh

I don't wanna be without my baby

I don't wanna broken heart

Don't wanna to take breath without my baby

I don't wanna to play that part

I know that I love you but let me just say

I don't wanna love you in no kinda way

No, no, I don't wanna a broken heart

I don't wanna to play the broken-hearted girl

No, no, no broken-hearted girl, broken-hearted girl

No, no, no broken-hearted girl, no broken-hearted girl

hahaha..aku bosan2...aihhh;)

Im sitting here

Thinking bout

How im gon-na do without

You around in my life and how am I

I gon' get by

I ain't got no days

Just lonely nights

You want the truth

Well girl im not alright

Feel out of place and out of time

I think im gonna lose my mind

So tell me how you feel (im lonely)

Are you for real (so lonely)

Do you still think of me (i think of you)

Baby still (You only)

Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)

So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)

Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)

Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)

I think that i will never love again

I miss your face

I miss your kiss

I even miss the arguments

That we would have from time to time

I miss you standing by my side

I'm dying here its clear to see

There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me

Don't wanna live, I wanna die

If I cant have you in my life

So tell me how you feel (im lonely)

Are you for real (so lonely)

Do you still think of me (i think of you)

Baby still (You only)

Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)

Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)

Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)

Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)

I think that I will never love again

babyface~the loneliness~

hehe...bunga2x..hihi

jgn menangis lgi...

jangn nangis lynnda..jgn.....bpe kli nk ckp even ko disakiti cmne sekalipn terase cmne skli pn ckup2 la menangis tu...dorg bkn tau pn ko terase ati ngn dorg...jgn nk tacing sorg2 plak..ko kne kuat la..jgn over sensitif sgt..ckt2 nk nangis..mcm xde kje lain lg kn...ko x  untung pn klu ko nangis lg rugi ade la..ko tu dh la x  sijat mne lg tu..wt ko lg tension ade lg..tmbh2 lg sakit ko tu nnt..sbr lynnda..selgai tuhan x tarik kesbrn ko yg tggi tu ko kne sbr..tuhan x kn kurniakn sifat tu klu x  bersbb k..anggp ni semua mcm hlgn2 ygperlu ko harungi utk wt ko jdi lbh kuat..menangis la utk bnde n org2 yg pntg jew..kesat airmatamu..jgn menangis lg yew syg...they dont deserve it!!!jgn jdi lemah sgt dgn airmata tu k..tp boleh ke aku..mmpu kew aku....;(

*SINGLE* is NOT a status. It's a word that best describes a person who is strong enough to live & enjoy life without depending on others.

dh lme x rs skt cmni....

arini satu ari aku baring je kt umh semuanye gara2 perod pain..dh lme kot aku x kne cmni..bese normal je jrg sgt la nk kne period pain tp arini mmg btl2 aku dh mcm org lam pntang je..bring je dri pg smp ptg..now d ase oke ckt..seb bek la arini off day klu x pengsan la aku..dsbbkn xleh kua g mne2 smp skg aku x  senntuh sebiji nsi pn lg..pg2 dh bedal potato snek tu then mkn bskut nteh pns jew..lega ckt ble mnum teh pns td tu..bese tiap2 ari pekena ais je kn..arini au trigt sgt2 kt  fmly aku lbh2 lg adik2 aku tu..trpk x lme lg dh nk bkk skolah kn mst aku x dpt nk tgk adik bngsu aku msuk drjah 1..frustnye..bese adik2 aku msuk skolah mst dpt tgk dorg..hope akhir thn ni aku leh blik la.dh rs rs rndu sgt kt  dorg ni..last jmp pn rye aji aritu je dh lme dh tu..x sbrnye nk blik..korunk aumer tnggu along blik taw..miss u so much..miss u a lot..kt cni along xde sape2 pn taw..rs snyi sgt2 korg xde disisi tp nk wt cmne kn..;(

wat should i feel rite now?????

xtau la pe yg ptt aku rs skg..ptg td ble dpt tau je psl tu aku x  rs pape pn..trkjut x mrh pn x tp pe yg aku ase cm feelin yg amat ssh nk digmbrkn..di explain kn..yup!aku rs simpati...kecian pd dia...kcian sgt2..xtau npe..tp tu la yg aku rs..tetibe je ble dh smpai umh ble pk2 blik aku jdi sdih sgt2..yup prasaan mcm tu aku pnh rs sblm2 ni..prasaan yg memakse kte bermain dgn prsaan kte sndri..feelin kte..emosi kte..aku smpati sgt pd die..dh lme aku maafkn die lps aku dh tau prkra yg sbtulnye sblm ni tp pe yg aku taw ptg td tu lg buatkn aku rs smpati sgt pd die..ye mmg die slh pnh buat slp tp slgi nme mnusia x kn lari dri semua tu kn..aku rs die pn dh mnyesal dgn ape yg die dh buat tu..maafkn lah die..bg die peluang kedua...support die jgn biakn die terus hnyut tnpa bimbingan dri sape2..saat2 cmni la kte akn sdar dri ni ni seorg shat or jusr a normal friens..fikir2kn..peluang x dtg berkali2 tp jgn biakn peluang yg ade skli dlm hdup kte ni kte sia2 kn..mnusia xkn lari dri buat slp btolkn ape yg ptt kte btlkn bmbing sape2 yg perlukn bmbingan,berikan sokongan pd sape2 yg memerlukn..insyaAllah,klu org tu x  mmblsnya Tuhan akn mmbls segala kebaikn kte satu hari nnt...believe me..

wit my fren almas

td ptg hang  out ngn almas jap..lme gk la aku bertapa kt lrt dang wangi tu tnggu die bis kje..kol 6 bru die smpai..kematu gk la ase haha..xpew2..haa..lam train x ubah cm sandwich je aku rs bapak rmai org blik kje time2 cmtu..tu aku x bpe suke naik train ble ptg2 lbh2 lg putra lrt ni..smpai gmbak kne daki bukit agi nk g kt parking kete die..mmg la klu x  pth pn kaki aku ni ade gk la ase sengal2 ckt kn..hihi..ok2..sbr lg..we all smpai restoren rumah thai lam kol 645..seb bek x jem sgt kt area tmn melati gombak tu...time nk g kdai tu lalu plak sate kajang hj samsuri branch kt ctu..tetibe teringt lgu kteorg nyanyi smlm tu  hahaha...wah..klu bkn sbb lpr nsi mmg dh lme aku snggah n bedal sate jek td..sbr2..still ade byk agi ms kn..tnggu ko sate..x lme lg ngn lidi2 sate tu skli aku sambar..haha...lme x  mkn sate tau ade kot dkt sthn..huhu..mkn2 borak2 gossip2 ckt then grak blik..almas hntr aku kt sentul then aku naik train blik umh..kol9 da smp umh dh..singgah mkcik jap bli air..lately aku kuat sgt mnum air..tu x ksh lg tp aku sgt kisah ble kne g tndas byk2 kli..x suke btl la..actually ade bnde lain aku nk share ngn korunk mlm ni..td cm ade mud nk coret2 skg dh mcm xde idea plak..tgk nnt tgh mlm ckt klu aku x tito aku update lg erk..aku kne tito awl cz smlm da x  ckup tito kn..alahai bdn npe la x pnh ase penat...

;)

giler r dkt kol 6am bru aku blik umh..kua pn da dkt 3 am.lepak ngn kwn aku..g karok n mkn2 je t[ x sngka leh sm[ subuh..caya r..lme da kot aku x overnite cmni..hahaha...pas karok mkn lg..tp td aku mkn ckt je..xde selera sgt..nsi lemak die cm x kne je ngn selera aku..mybe sbb nsi lemak mamak pn kot x  same ngn selera org malayu kn..igt nk mkn mcd tp mcd plak menu dh change setting..ape aku nk dh xde..erm ble smpai mcd btho tu tringt time aku mnangis lam ujan time kne tggal taxi tu dlu..nsb bek la ade kwn aku yg tlg even dia mntk tlg kwn dia hntrkn aku blik umh..igtkn dh x  smpi btho lg tp pg ni aku smp lg kt sne...hehe..td blik umh pintu lak wt hal xleh nk bkk..tombol die rosak kot..panic jap aku sbb xnk tito kt luar..aku msj kwn aku yd then try call k.yu seb bek k.yu trjge klu x  tito kt luar la nmpknye..huhu..cian mmber aku x psl2 kne pth blik semula..sory u..td i panik sgt tringt u je time tu..seb bek i x tito luar td..k la mata ngntok dh ni..nite n mornink all...sok smbung agi erk..daaa

timetable aku yg pelik..hihi

hye..how r u guys today????aku oke je kot arini...cm bese je tp bit tired gk la..tetibe ade fotoshoot plak td..supposely every sunday kn..then doing the tagging2..uwaaa...penat minda arini..trsgt pnt tp blik awl..730 dh ade kt umh dh..terus tito     smp kol 12am x  sdr ape..ase rutin aku stiap ari cmni kot skg...tito awl then tgh2 mlm bgun...arini lupe nk siram kwn baik aku tu..haha..td trbgun lmbt n liat sgt2 nk bgn..hehe...tp slmt gk smpai ampang tu...lbt kn ujan ptg td hmpir2 beku gk la aku lam econ tu..time kt ampang my fren almas call ngadu kt aku sal kt tmpt kje die..cian gk la die tp aku xleh tlg:( hope tomorow i can cheer up her as she chee up mine..x ksh la kau sdih pon asl kn org2 yg aku syg eppy..aku slesa kwn ngn almas mybe sbb ktorg suke mkn kn..dia slalu bsing2 ble bdn die naik ble kuar ngn aku hahahaha..abes tu nk wt cmne lg kn..hihi..badan aku mmg agk ssh nk naik kn..esok if cuaca oke n aku pn oke lepak jap kot ngn die sbb die ajk kn..mmber2 lain sumer dh snyap..oke gk tu sbb aku skg mmg agk memilih ckt ble nk kua ngn org..ye la byk terase ati ngn kengkawan..sisa2 ngntok ade ag ni plus lpr..mlsh tol ble dh tito nk bgn siap2 g bli mkn kt bwh tu..kn best klu mkcik wt delivery..bapak pemalas haha..yeah..i admit arini aku x bpe eppy sgt..bkn arini je lately la..tp im trying make myself happy..can i????asingkn dri aku dri org lain..mnyepi sumer..aku bwt sumer ni so dat xkn ade sape2 pn taw sal aku kt cni...its better then i share all wit others rite???k la..nk smbung tito or bli mkn lu erk..ntah la..kne wt decision b4 kol 2.:)

“I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with eachother;for those were some of the best times of my life

stop cying lynnda..:(

stop crying lynnda.....plz..plz..plz....even cmne sekali pon org lyn ko cmne teruk skli pn dorg lyn ko kne strong..jgn cpt menangis..jgn bazirkn airmata tu utk org yg x  pnh nk lyn ko ngn baik..hargai ko sbg kwn apatah lg sbgai shbt..they dont deserve it..mahalkn air mata ko tu utk org2 yg sepatutnye jew....npe ngn aku ni ckt2 nk nangis nk touching..i x taw npe org suke lyn aku cmni...wt aku rs cm aku trhegeh2 sgt kt korunk..aku jz nk brkwn slh kew..klu cmni la korunk lyn aku better im alone....xleh kew bg aku sdikt je ruang utk berkwn ngn korunk smuer????xleh kew....stop crying lynnda...jgn nk touching sgt la..ko nangis ke..ape kew..ade ke org amik tau amik peduli pe ko rs skg?????xde kn..sumer wt bodo je sbb bg dorg ko ade atau x same je la..ko igt ko tu pntg sgt ke utk dorg????4 certain2 time mybe la kot pnting tp jgn nk berangan lbih2 sgt la wei...cermink dri ko tu ckt la lynnda oii...i mntk maaf pd sape2 yg rs i dh wt slp kt korunk ke ape kew..promise myself i will not disturb u all anymore..get alone is btter 4 me i think..yeah..i must be alone 4 the rest of my life...im sorry...so sory to all my frens if im not contact u anymore..now onwards my life only for my fmly...just focus on my fmly n wat im doin rite..dats the best way i have now..yeah..im choose to be alone without u frens....all of u..

=)

Ku tak percaya kau ada di sini

Menemaniku di saat dia pergi

Sungguh bahagia kau ada di sini

Menghapus semua sakit yang kurasa

Mungkinkah kau merasakan

Semua yang ku pasrahkan

Kenanglah kasih.

Ku suka dirinya, mungkin aku sayang

Namun apakah mungkin, kau menjadi milikku

Kau pernah menjadi , menjadi miliknya

Namun salahlah aku, bila ku pernah merasa ini

p/s..sape la org tu erk.. sumone who always make me smile,make me laugh..thanx a lot give me back my smile even sumtime im crying for u my fren :)